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Ronnie: Just checking in to see how you are doing and to get inspired. God Bless.
SHAKIRA: WOOOOW , UR DOING GRRR8 AT LOSING ALL THAT KILOS. I AM TRYING SO HARD BUT ITS NOT EASY , I CAN TELL U ,BUT UR DOING QUITE WELL !!!
Bree: Wow! Looks like you are doing a great job with dieting! I'm just passing by. Nice journal!
Staci: I'm Back & have a New post....
Theresa: Thanks for visiting my web site. you are a great inspiration to all of us dieters. Thanks for being so faithful to your journal.
rachel: Thanx for dropping by!!! It good to read that you're hanging in there! I need the motivation!!
Staci: Hey Girl, I have a new post and will be back to posting regularly again soon. Your still my Hero!!!
April: Hey girl, just stopped in to say hi! You're doing great! TTYL
Trysta: What a great Journal ~ you are truly an inspiration! Take care :)
Connie: Not only finding your posts motivating, but am finding intersting links here as well. I hope you have a great weekend!
sara: lovely blog
ny_shelly: Hi Star - just wanting to see how you are doing this week. I hope you will post soon! Hugs!
April: Hey girl, you're doing great!! The exercise will take care of the couple of pounds. Have a great day!!
krazyfrazzledmom: Just wanted to stop in and say hi and see how your doing! Woo Hoo on the 4 pounds lost!!! Your pictures are amazing!!! You are truly an inspiration to me!!
April: Wow girl, I like that new pic at the top of your journal!! That's so cool...you're actually HALF the size you used to be!!! Awesome!!!
Angie: Hi, just blog hopping, thought I'd stop by and say HELLO. Hope you're having a good day ~ Love Angie
Anonymous: Wishing you a happy Easter!!!
Staci: Hey Girl, i was wanting to see that movie guess I'll save my 6 bucks and wait for it to come on ppv. I'm glad your getting back on track. Hope you start feeling better soon. I'll check back with you next week.
pj: Hello, Its been a long while sence I have checkedin on you. I admire your strength!! Im trying to lose you already know also. Im at a pause. i still work out 5-6 times a week and not gaining but I ca not seem to get back to the eat well again Some times I wonder if ican get my ump back to eat well again. Ill have to come back more often to get encouraged.
Rachel: Hi there!
LaVonda: Hi!! Just browsing the ring to see how everyone is doing. Keep up the good work girl, you are my inspiration!!
ny_shelly: Hi C, I hope you are doing better this week. Look forward to reading your journal tomorrow.
Staci: I left you a momment on the comment you left me in my journal. I'm SOOO Glad your BACK!!!
April: You're welcome. I'm glad I started to dieting ring too. It helps ALL of us with motivation and it gives us someone other than ourselves to feel accountable for....good way to keep on track (or in my case, to at least keep trying).
MrsDawsibdb: Hey girl It's great to see you are still going and not giving up no matter what comes your way. Keep up the great work girlie you'll get goal in no time :D
April: Happy St. Patty's Day!!
Staci: Happy St. Pattys Day. I keep checkin back to see your newest post, but haven't seen one yet. I'll keep lookin for it...Ciao Girl
secret: CONGRATULATIONS!!! Sounds like your hard work is paying off.
Staci: Hey Girl, what's up? Can't wait for your new post to come out. I know you only write once a week, but its still exciting to see someone finally win the weight battle. Keep up the Great Job!!! Happy Fat Tuesday.
P.J.: WOW!!!!! Great for you! Peolple just do not know that this is a full time job to get these goals. I am so excited for you. I have not been here for sometime, and I see ihave missed out on learning. I am still working on going down but have gotten a little out of foucus , I know I should come here you always enourage just watching you learn how. Thanks!!
Tina: Stopping in to see how you are doing! WOW!! you are doing GREAT!!!! Keep it up!
Staci: WOW! Girl you are doing great! I know what ya mean with the can't eat just one thing. So, I have started to put my snacks like rice cakes and chips into baggies. That way when they are done so is my snack.
Rachel: I am SO excited for you! You go girl! I love to see people achieving thier goals, especially with weight loss, cause it just so darn hard!!! I'd love to weigh about 170! I'm right at 218 now and I need to get back on the ball, ya know?! Good luck to you!
Nickie: Thanks for stopping by!!!! I'm all excited for you being so close to your next goal - what do ya think, couple more weeks and you're there!!!
secret: Your before and after pictures are amazing.
Theresa: Wtg....you are an inspiration to all of us dieters. Proof that if we hang in there, it will come off. My mom always says, you did not put it on overnight, so what makes you think you can lose it all over night. What a wise woman she is.
Amandaclaire: WOW YOU GO GIRL!!!!! You really give hope
April: I'd like to invite you to join my new Dieter's Journaling Ring on Bravenet!! Come on over and check it out!!! http://pub33.bravenet.com/sitering/show.php?usernum=2786503725
Tina: I saw where it said you had been in the hospital what happened? Hope you are feeling better!
PJ: hi, Thanks so much for the kind compliment. I am so glad you enjoy what the Lord puts in me. So please return to my site or get in my profile get my email address and please do share your healing!! I always get inspired to keep trying to lose the buldge every time I leave your site.
ny_shelly: Hi star - hey I haven't been on here long but it seems like you're pretty consistent postng. I hope you are ok.
Anna: You are so inspiring! I'm not as far along on my journey, but I've subscribed to your journal for motivation!
ny_shelly: Hi Star - you are a wonderful inspiration. I am where you were 2 years ago. Please see my new journal. I never did a journal but I think it will help if I can get some support friends like you have. Thanks.
ronnie: You are such an inspiration to me. Taebo will get easier as you become more comfortable with the pace. stick with it, it does wonders for plateaus.
P.J.: Sorry to hear the angish you are going through! I wanted to start taebo with the bands, but Iam a chicken, my daughter done them at school and she said they were hard, have you done those? there is so much to choose from I dont know what to do.
Corina: You seem very motivated! Good for you! You're doing a wonderful Job!!! 2006 will be the year that you meet your goal!!!!! Go 4 it!!!
Tina: Hey just found the time to stop by and say hello. Hope this post finds you well! I started over with my diet and have lost 4.5 lbs since 12/21. Just wanted to update.
Lisa: Wow, you've done a fantastic job! Keep your eye on the prize, but remember to feel good about yourself NOW! That's the key!
pj: Hi, Sowy I havent drop by for some time, I have been thinking about you alot though. I think It is been hard foe me this last few weeks, I only lost 4 lbs and lost 2.75 inchs , which is great dont get me wrong but boy after dropping 11 lbs and 4 inchs in comparrson it stinks. i actually thought I was gaining just by the way I was feeling. Iam so glad that you are feelihg good at who you r right now!! thats more importanat than what you actually weigh, so Congrads on that!!! I will be back real
Nickie: All I can say is "Wow". You're sooooo inspiring!
rEdNeCkhOnEy: I agree with Amanda! You have shared alot of great tips. I work out 3 days a week now, but I could work out a few more! Keep up the great job, you look great!

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Thursday, December 28th 2006

10:59 AM

Questions? Questions? and More Questions?

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Right now I am struggling with wanting to be a size my body doesn't necessarily want. I am smaller than I was in high school. Should that be enough? For me to lose and maintain anything in the 180's, I have to exercise 5-6 days a week and watch everything that goes into my mouth. Is that something I want to do for the rest of my life?  I have come a long way and I can say I look good.   I know there is no "normal" way, but I guess I have to decide what I want to be normal for me. Those are the kinds of questions I am asking myself as I go into the New Year. What do I want for me? Not for anyone else but me. I'm trying to take the fact that I have said this is my goal or that is my goal. I'm trying to take out the fact that I don’t want to disappoint others with my decision. Trying to decide if I am rationalizing again? Is this complacency talking? Is this fear of not achieving my goal talking?

So many questions, but I don’t have answers right now. Until I can honestly answer those questions, I am going to continue on. I have been working on getting the nuts out of my system. I am still nut free. I was working on my exercise, but I didn't get it back to the level I wanted. . I have given myself until next Tuesday to get back in gear. I will give Lean for Life another round complete with exercise.   

ETA:

 It’s the weighing and measuring everything that I eat that gets me sometimes -that what I mean when I say watch everything to goes into my mouth.  I have undergone a lifestyle change – with a new WOL. I don't have the problem of eating sweets like some people. I said from the beginning that I wouldn't and that's the one thing I have stuck to. Now I have my problems with nuts and tried many times to combat it. I thought I should be able to eat them periodically in my WOL, but I can't maintain portion control. I accept that for now. Maybe I will try again later.


For me to get into the 180's (my goal), I must weigh and measure everything I eat to the exact portion and exercise 5/6 days a week with workouts of more than 30 minutes. I don't have high metabolism never have. It takes more effort - mentally and physically - for me to get and stay in the 180's. Right now I don't know if I have that. I guess that's where all the questions are coming from. Am I considering changing my goals again because I don't want to push forward, go the extra mile? Am I afraid I can't do it? I can maintain a weight between 199-203 with 3/4 days of exercise 30 minutes and eating right. I am happy there. Is there something wrong with me for that? Am I pushing too hard to fit those weight charts that I know are not meant for me? Am I settling? Or I am being realistic? If I can't be sure of what I want, how can I achieve it?

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Posted by Head Tater:

You go girl.... Wow, what an inspiration you have turned out to be.. I am just now starting a weight loss and fitness regimen for myself and have thouroughly enjoyed my visit here. You have done an incredible job with your weight loss as your photos depict. I am going to add you to my friends list and return often for more inspiration.. Thank you for posting your triumphs and pitfalls for us all to see. Do stop by sometime as all encouragement is greatly appreciated and needed..lol :)
Sunday, December 31st 2006 @ 7:41 AM

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